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Saturday, December 26, 2009

one step at a time.

you don't love her.

for crying out loud, you haven't been dating the girl for more than what, twenty four hours? so hell no, you don't fucking love her.

you like her. and you've liked her for what, a total of two weeks or something? more or less, who knows, because you don't tell me these things anymore.

so what, i'm quick to judge. who wouldn't judge a relationship that's only lasted about a day and the partners are already saying 'i love you' to each other when they didn't even know each other really existed until about, oh, i don't know, three weeks ago?

you've known each other for four months. i get it. you've liked her for a week or two. i get it. you made your relationship official on christmas day. i get it. and you love her. i don't get it.

whatever, your heart feels what it feels but this, my friend, isn't love. this is what i hate about relationships and why i can understand so many older people call teenagers immature and incapable of being in 'true love' or relationships. because there are certain people who just blurt out 'i love you' for the sake of having something to say, of having something to prove that the relationship is working and going somewhere and will continue to go somewhere.

you can last a whole month without those three words slipping out of your month, i'll tell you that.

don't say it if you don't mean it. you might think you do, but you just like her. a lot. and this whole 'i love her' thing isn't flying. i'm not getting my head around it just yet because you know what? it doesn't make sense to me.

and sure, i sound harsh and i sound like a fucking bitch and i sound judgmental as hell. well, maybe because i am. i'm your best friend, i'm not your fucking shrink. i'm your reality check when you need it. i tell you my opinion when you ask for it. i give you advice when you want it.

i'm not your maid or your fucking mistress who's going to pat you on the back and hand you tissues. though that sounds like the perfect best friend, it isn't. i'm just trying to understand you right now because i haven't been understanding you for the past three weeks.

i know everything last. i find out everything from unimportant and irrelevant resources. i only find out from you once i ask you.

and this might sound hypocritical because of my last post, but these things are really nothing to hide because we see each other almost everyday and you know i'm bound to find out. and if one day, something horrible travels around and i hear word of it from another unimportant and irrelevant source, i really don't know what i'll do.

so yeah, i don't get it. i don't get you right now.

that's all.

live and breath everyday.

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind & confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

closest friends get estranged when the status change

"thought i knew you for a minute, now i'm not so sure
so here's to everything coming down to nothing
here's to silence that cuts me to the core
where is this going ? thought i knew for a minute but i don't anymore"

i'm not gonna apologize for doing something that i don't regret doing.
just because it doesn't exactly go on your 'bucket list', or look right in your eyes, i'm not going to apologize for doing it.
things change and people grow up. i wasn't exactly looking to try something new, especially that, and i wasn't going out of my way to get it.
it was an opportunity that came up and you know what? yeah, i never thought i would. but i did. and i don't really give a fuck that it happened because you know what? what's done is done, it's in the past and i already did it.

i'm sorry that i didn't tell you earlier. you weren't exactly the first person i wanted to tell because i knew this was how you were gonna react.
and you know, i didn't tell very many people because i didn't think it was a big deal. at least where i'm growing up, the school i'm in, nobody really botehrs to give two fucks.
it's something you come across and something that you're gonna be around and that maybe something you won't be able to understand because of your school and your new friends.
i told you when i was ready, and i didn't think you'd take it as bad as you did. people might think that your reaction isn't as bad compared to others, but you're the only one who talked to me after in such a degrading way.

i haven't changed. that one thing doesn't affect me as a whole. it doesn't suddenly shape my whole personality, being and life.
just because you didn't expect it from me, cause hell, i didn't expect it from myself either, that doesn't mean that i'm all of a sudden a new person that you're better than.
damn, it'd be one sad world if all the people who haven't tried it looked down on the people who have.
i'm not the stereotype, so don't label me or talk to me like i am. once, twice, sure but i know my limits and i'm not going to fuck up my life, so please don't act like i already have.

you're lucky that i even told you, because i haven't even told one of the very best friends i have. and i'm sure he deserves to know more than you do, and i'm sure that he'll take it way easier than you did.
you're supposed to be my best friend. you don't know how highly i talk of you. and now i feel like, slowly but surely, things are changing.
i'm trying so fucking hard to keep it the way it is or was at least because i don't want to go through this again. i've been through it one too many times and i know i should be used to it by now, but i won't be.
who the fuck is used to their best friend leaving? or going? or not being there anymore?

it isn't my thing, so don't look at me and talk to me and think about only that.
i want you to look at me and talk to me like i'm your best friend.

i'd highly appreciate that.

Monday, December 21, 2009

infinite silence.

but i guess things change
it's funny how someone else's success brings pain.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

thursday, december 3rd, 2009 ... :)

personal entry.

practice tires me out. she made us run a lot, but i guess that's silveira for you, right? we didn't win the game but i wasn't upset... in a sense, i guess, because that team was shit, definitely. but she made us work on blocking and running from net position to free ball position is quite hard. she wants us there faster and faster each time. then after volleyball, i have phys ed, and today we went to the weight room. i'm pretty sliiiick, i won't lie. but i got so tired when i was going to art, i wanted to fall asleep. and i almost did. perspective, really? i learned that in grade four but she makes it seem so hard. it's due tomorrow but i didn't even do anything except for the border. i still need to hand in my choice painting, haha.

lunch wasn't bad. stayed with the girls for a bit then found cassie, and we stole robby's cookie. we finally got christian's attention and when he left to go see us, joey and ian and paul came around. talked for a little while like always till joey left with her, hahahaha. and ian left with paul. then andrew came over. "oh no" loool. then group hug and we left for thirrrd. fourth was pretty boring but i'm doing better in fourth now. i guess i'm trying to focus. an essay worth 95 marks in total, so fml, gonna work hard on that one.

afterschooooool... haha, live! stayed with cassie to watch the basketball game but first we went to her house. changed into her sweats and headed over to pizzapizza for a slice. after that, we walked back to martins and then watched the game. it was pretty fun actually. talking to christian and james and jahmar and diego. lmfao cassie, bob and chung lee/catherine and michelle. ohhhhh dear. after that senior game, we talked to alex mcfarlane (yes ciarra!) and hung out there for a while. me and cassie went to watch a little bit of the junior game but not too much... they were beating them anyway.

saw frank, talked to him for a while, and then didn't wanna walk home alone to cassie's house. we got kwasi to walk with us since he goes that way. stayed until half and then we walked home with kwasi, stewie, james and justin. lmfao kwasi, realtalkssss... i am serious. don't even lie, that was a serious issue i talked about. then he started talking about 'cloudy with a chance of meatballs' and how hungry these guys were. oh dear.

then stayed at cassie's house for a while, stayed for dinner and played around with jacob. had some realtalks ;) i love her off. ♥

hopefully tomorrow's a good day ?

/personal entry.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

i wish that you'd come crash into me

every girl deserves the best.

every girl deserves a man who's going to be there for her at her best and at her worst. they deserve a real man who's going to put her first, not second or third or last. they deserve a man who knows what's best for her, and what's best for him, and puts things into perspective. every girl deserves a real man. a real, honest to God, man.

and why they are so hard to find these days, God only knows why. but what i know is that you shouldn't put up with the bullshit or the lies or the fakes walking around. every single piece of bullshit, every single lie and every single fake emotion, feeling and word he speaks and feels and expresses and feeds you - you don't deserve any of it.

get up and leave. don't stress the small. boys are just boys. find them anywhere.

i'm tired of seeing heartbreaks and stressed people and i'm tired of telling my own friends that he isn't worth the pain or the heartbreak, he isn't worth the trouble or the time. and i'm tired of being unacknowledged and ignored, and i'm tired of seeing that same friend go through the same pain, heartbreak, trouble and wasting time with the same waste boy.

you don't deserve bullshit. you are worth so much more.

don't waste time listening to him say 'i love you' when you know that it's meaningless. don't waste time forgiving him everytime he comes crawling back to you because he knows you're whipped. don't waste time telling him 'i love you' when you know you're just another one on his list of things to do. don't waste time trying to get him to change because you can't force change on somebody who doesn't want it.

he's not going to become a better person because of you. as harsh as it sounds, you aren't the reason for his better doings. unless he wants it for himself and for good intentions, he won't change because of you or for you. he wants to do good because he wants to get to you and wants to get in you. get it straight or don't get it at all.

boys like these are easy to find yet they're so hard to pick out. i'm not saying that there are no good men out there, but it's not like they're flashing and you could just pick them out and have them for yourself.

take your time when you're young. your heart is naive and vulnerable and when you come crashing down, best believe that he isn't going to be there to help you get back up and pick up the pieces of your broken heart.

i don't want to tell those same friends and give them advice when they're not going to listen to me. i don't want to watch you fall apart again only to have you go crawling back to him. i don't want to be the one putting your broken heart together because, as much as it sounds like something a good friend would do, i shouldn't have to be doing it in the first place.

you should know you deserve better than some asshole who walks around pretending he feels something for you, when all he feels is his manhood going hard.

please know that you deserve much more and that you are worth so much more, and i don't want to see you crying again.

Monday, November 16, 2009

sing me to sleep tonight.

boys will be boys, girls will be girls.

this means that boys will get over things with time, but it always seems to be less time than girls. this means that girls will overreact and blow things out of proportion. this means that boys will be into sports, cars, and things that girls won't be into. this means that girls will be into makeup, shopping and things that boys won't be into.

but this doesn't mean that you can't get past it and build a strong relationship with one another.

i'm thankful for the few boys in my life that i always can seem to count on, regardless. the friends in my life that are girls, i can trust them with my life, but it's easier to acknowledge them and it's easier to thank them everyday and say 'i love you' and mean it with ease.

but the boys in my life can't go unnoticed. for some reason, they've probably affected me more and have been more reliable than some of the people in my life. especially my best friend, my brother and my other half.

i have to thank him, and today i realized how much he has done for me, even if just subconsciously. he has been there for me through every problem and every down i've ever experienced. he's been there to listen, although sometimes not very well, and has been there to watch me grow and learn from my mistakes.

he lets me make them, and he lets me learn, and he lets me get back up on my feet to be a better person. he has been there through all my faults and has accepted all my flaws and he has been there through all the happiness and has shared them with me.

i know that we'll be friends for a while, and hopefully for the rest of my lifetime and i know that he's the one friend i can count on no matter what, and nothing can truly tear us apart, and nobody can tear us apart.

he deserves more credit than i am giving, and he deserves more attention than i am giving, so here's to you. you're basically my family, and i call you my brother, and even though we're only three and a half months in this new part of our lives, i can't thank you enough for always being there. i prayed that i would never lose you, and i'm glad that i haven't and i plan on keeping it that way. you might not know how much you mean to me, but i know how much you mean to me and i hope that one day you realize how grateful i am to have you in my life.

you've done nothing but be kind and be an amazing friend, and for some odd reason, i feel like no matter what happens, we'll always stay friends. thank you, brother, for everything you've done and i'm sure i'll continue to thank you for the things you'll be doing. i have your back through thick and thin. i promise you this.

i guess high school helps me realize a lot of things, and it also helped me realize who my true friends are. we've overcome a lot through our friendship, and three months in and you've never hesitated to help me through this experience. thanks a bunch. i'll always be here for you like you've been there for me.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

i'm only gonna play the fool one time.

one low blow after another. and the cycle just repeats and repeats.

first, i find out things from people. numerous messages here and there from people that are close to me, people that i'm not that close to and random people, some i don't even know. "did you hear about so and so?" yes, i heard. and i want you to stop reminding me.

second, i find out something that i wasn't exactly searching for. it was accidental, but it was something that somehow meant so much to me. i thought i wasn't serious about you, but i guess i am or at least was. or at least i was getting there. i don't even know anymore.

third, not even a day after the second disappointing thing, i am once again reminded, but this time it's harsh. it's official. it's harsh and it's official and it may be my last reminder, but you know that it's torture when i see you walking around. walking around, with that person, and walking around doing those things.

i get reminded all the time. i get reminded that it's never enough.

that i'm never enough.

and it's difficult to live seeing those people that bring you those reminders every single day. it's difficult to know that the person they enjoy being around and with so much could have been you, if you did this or if you did that.

or if you were them.

and it's difficult to get a reminder every single day that you're not enough. it's difficult to get a subliminal reminder that what you're doing and who you are - it's not enough and never will be.

it may be done subconsciously, but it hurts all the same.

it hurts all the same to know that you're just never going to be enough.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

my heartbeat is growing weak.

the last time i said that i didn't need you and that i was through with you apparently wasn't the last time. but i promise you that i realized some things over the past few weeks that made me see the person you truly are, and i swear to God, this is the last time.

i don't need you in my life. whatever made me think different in the past is making me think that i was clearly blind and dumb then. to honestly believe that i was trying and trying for a good thing is stupid, because i know now that you aren't a good thing. you're not worth my time. you're definitely just not worth it.

you are far from a good person. you are far from something worthy. you are far from something that i need in my life. and if it's taken me this long to realize that, then so be it. i'm just glad that i've finally realized.

i've tried to see the good in you for so long. i've tried to push all the flaws aside, knowing that i have my own as well, and i've tried to get over all the problems that we've been through. i got over them. i overlooked all the mistakes and wrongs. i tried harder each time that we fell through and fell apart. now, i just can't keep trying.

i'm not gonna put in so much effort into something that you don't want to work. i can't see past all the flaws anymore because they're just getting bigger and bigger. there is no more good you. i try so hard to find it but there's just none. and i see now that there was never any to begin with. i realize now that i was lying to myself in the past, probably just wanting an excuse to not be a bad person and leave you.

but you know what, i don't even care anymore. the realest sticks around and they show their true selves when you enter a whole new environment, a whole new place in your life. once we entered high school, it became different. with everyone, of course, but i won't be able to handle and tolerate you anymore. the realest sticks around, yeah, but the fakes shine through. it becomes obvious.

so i'm done wasting time. i'm done trying to be somebody i won't be. i'm done trying to please you and others. it isn't worth it. it never was anyway. i'm just done.

and i hope you realize this. i hope you realize what you've done to me and other people, and what you're still doing to me and other people. i hope you realize it and i hope it sends you on a big guilt trip.

once you realize it, i hope you see that you're no longer do it to me. you can continue to do it to others, but i'm done being part of that crowd. and once you realize it, don't turn around and expect me to listen to you and try to help you out and 'have your back'.

i've walked out on you for the final time. you've already walked out on me, anyway.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


is hard. Oh well.

You deal with it.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

you're a jerk, i know

Ego is so big, it is consuming the poor boy.

Isn't it funny when that happens? Like what a waste. You're not even that *great* so maybe you can stop being such a fucking drama queen, eh? Thinking you're badass and shit... whoosh, you are a pretty big disgrace.

Moving on from stupid shit,

today was a good day. I love my new best friend, Fralvin. Thanks Abby and Sean ♥

Tomorrow is the big day!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

do me a favor, call me jerk one more time.

Do I deserve it? Meh, maybe. But please don't use me. And I'm not saying I'm some sort of angel but compared to a few people around here, I'll admit that I'm nice. I'm pretty honest. I'm pretty loyal. So don't take advantage of it, because that's fucked up. And just because I am nice, doesn't mean I won't go back and fuck you over as a thank you for fucking me over.

That isn't a threat.

But on the other hand... I think I missed all of the signals you never gave me. There goes my mind again just wishing for something to happen, wishing so hard that I actually think it's happening when it isn't. I'm fucking sorry. I really am.

God, I just feel like breaking down and fucking crying, but I won't let myself. Not this early on in because if I do, how the hell am I gonna survive a whole ten months?

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

you swear you're the last thing on my mind

When you pretend and act like nothing has happened, and that nothing is wrong... there is a term for that.


Enough is enough. I'm really getting sick and tired of it all.

Monday, September 21, 2009

true friends stab you in the front, so tell me why my back is aching

It's true what they say.

Your friendships - loyalty, trust, honesty, love - it all gets put to the test once you enter high school. And you know what, sometimes, those friendships end up fading into the background because there isn't enough effort put into it and there isn't enough communication. There just isn't enough. There isn't enough to hold it together, like how it was held together before.

High school pushes you to the limit when it comes to friends. It teaches you lessons after it gives you the test. And it's true when they say that you find out who your true, real friends are in high school, because this is the reality check. High school is the slap in the face.

You realize that people change, sometimes for the worse, and that you might not be able to do anything about it. You realize that people won't stay, even when they promised you that they'd always be there for you. You realize that people will lie to your face and lie behind your back, and the two different sides of them will finally show. You realize that the people you thought were your best friends really aren't. You realize that things fade and end when they do for a reason, and sometimes, letting go is the hardest thing to do. But sometimes, letting go and letting change happen is the only thing saving your life.

Friendships don't last. That's one thing I learned in high school - and I'm only three weeks in.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

please don't make things more difficult than they gotta be

i knew i would see you around. i'm not naive, i'm not stupid, i'm not an idiot. i know that we attend the same school, and it's inevitable. we will, eventually, bump into each other maybe once, twice, more than twice, more than three times, more than four times. and i expected that. i prepared for it. i didn't really care, actually, because i was and i am over you.

but when i see you - once, twice, three times, four times... i believe it's been more than five times already - it isn't just a simple 'hi', 'hello', or a nod or wave or smile. it isn't just like we're both quiet passer by's who would like to get to class. it isn't just silent when we see each other.

it's a 'hey' with a high five. a 'hey' with a 'look at this...'. a 'hey' with a question. a 'hey' with 'how are you?'. a 'hey' with a 'what's new?'. it is a hello, and a conversation. and it lights up sparks in me, like it has always done before. like you have always done before.

and i feel like we're getting back into the same routine again, like a few years ago. and i'm thinking, if i'm over you, why does it matter? why do i care? there is no feeling here. but you can't just suddenly wipe away everything that happened in the past. when you lose somebody - death, or not - they don't fade away in one piece. the pain doesn't heal in one day. you don't suddenly forget them the next day they're gone. it takes time. everything comes back together day by day. but day by day, you start to realize what's really gone, making the healing just that much more painful, that much more longer and that much more slower.

i had only gotten over that a few months ago. and it's all hitting me back, like shit hitting the fan. and it feels good, it does. it feels fine to me. it feels like i'm in a safe zone right now. where you can say hello and strike up a conversation as many times as you'd like, but you will not get to me. i'm still over you.

but i'm afraid that after a while... a little more of this, a little more often... it will get to me. i'm scared that everything i've built up is going to come crashing down on me. i'm scared that you're going to be the one to push that wall and i'm scared of getting hurt again. i won't lie. i am scared of getting hurt again. i don't deserve to be hurt again, and that's what i believe.

part of me wishes you'd leave me alone, but the most of me just wants us to be able to be friends, without restrictions or boundaries. but i know i'm putting most of those restrictions and boundaries up because of my fears. i may be over what happened, i may be over you, but i'm not over all the hurting and the fear.

but i'll be willing to take any chance, any risk with you.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

the realest shit you've ever heard.

it makes me laugh when i read some stuff on people's bios that go a little something like this: "i'm different. i'm unique. i may be [insert age here] but i'm educated. i'm not like every other girl out there, even though you may think so." etc etc and they insert some intelligent ass sounding words here and there to make themselves seem smarter or worth your time, right?

i'm not gonna lie, i used to write shit like that. back when this blogspot never did exist, actually, haha. but i wasn't lying. goddamn, what was i, like eleven, and writing shit like that and i wasn't even lying. but these people, when you meet 'em in real life - they are nothing like you expected. you read the shit they write about themselves, and i understand in our fantasies, we want ourselves to be better and do better and seem better, but shit, you're writing this for the public eye.

and then they meet your fucking whack ass and are so hella disappointed. i'm not going to boost on my profile. i'm not. i re-did it but that's how you'll see me if you ever meet me in real life. i'm not gonna talk as if i have the world's biggest vocab, because i know for a fact that i do not, but i also know that i have a bigger vocab than you do and the shit you write in your stupid ass bio is so disappointing because it ain't true. it's a wall. it's what you put off to be over the what, the inter-friggin'-net?

this post was only written because i was scanning through all these blogspots that people have, you know, because apparently it's popular now in our little area, and EVERY FUCKIN' BIO SAYS THE SAME SHIT. what are you all, getting tips from each other? i bet i'm going to get shot tomorrow morning once i step out but oh well. hop off each other's swag, please? you're not 'real' if you're biting off somebody else. last i heard, that's called being a poser. fake. poser. fake. poser. fake. poser.

oh and quit flooding my home page on facebook with waste shit like "these dumb fake bitches these days, i swear" because you're one of them? LOOOL, i see you're trying to start a trend on talking shit about yourself, but okay, more power to you.

seriously, i'm just sick of these girls acting like they're the shit. these guys actually supporting it and encouraging this fuckery to happen. every girl thinks they're real and that they're the shit, and then they argue. fight. "waste cats" shut the fuuuuuck up.

whatever. as long as you leave me alone.


Friday, September 11, 2009

i'm sorry that....

i'm not willing to dress like a whore to impress you. i'm not willing to throw myself on you. i'm not willing to get down on my knees for you. i'm not willing to expose everything to you. i'm not willing to talk about personal problems with you just yet. i'm not willing to get into your pants. i'm not willing to just talk about sexual stuff. i'm not willing to act like a slut to catch your eye. i'm not willing to act outrageous for your attention. i'm not willing to change for you to love me like the rest of them.

i'm sorry that....

i'm willing to put in time and effort. i'm willing to get to know you. i'm willing to understand you. i'm willing to know the little things that make you who you are. i'm willing to be interested in those basketball games and the car you so wanted. i'm willing to sit down and hold a conversation with you. i'm willing to laugh and share little secrets with you. i'm willing to talk to you about things i'm comfortable with. i'm willing to look you in the eye and tell you that i'm real. i'm willing to tell you that i like you for who you are, and not who you put up to be.

is it so bad to have somebody like that in your life?
because if so, i'm so sorry...

Thursday, September 10, 2009

so, um, errrr...

am i a hypocrite? yeah? well, kiss my ass :)

Monday, September 7, 2009







Sunday, August 30, 2009



Friday, August 28, 2009



Wednesday, August 26, 2009

yeah screw it.

i hate blogskins. period.



on justin bieber

idk why but i'm following justin bieber on twitter. it's amusing, okay, so don't judge, haha. but anyway, on with the topic... he's canadian! WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT REPRESENT. i'm gonna stop.

let's move on. all of your 'hardcore' justin bieber fans or whatever with the mrs. bieber going on, did you even know justin BEFORE he got signed by usher? did you even know he got signed by usher? haha. dude, i swear justin was better on youtube than he is now. i loved his covers.

i think that half of his crazy teenage fans didn't even know he was kidrauhl. and to be honest, i liked him better that way.

AND HOW DARE HE TURN DOWN JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE. DUDE, i understand usher is amazing and all, but usher and timberlake wanted to sign him. I WOULD EFFING SIGN WITH JT, just saying.

that's all i have to say about him.

why did i even post about him?

Monday, August 24, 2009

ignore this.

this is me pushing down lindsay lohan's pictures. i'm sorry. real post on my real life *gasp* soon. don't stalk me you 52 or whatever followers. blah blah blah.

layout change

i'm trying. i hate blogskins. but mine was getting rather boring. now, i feel like another one of those bloggers we have in canada that i can find at every high school and they just blog about their lives everyday.

i don't know. this layout isn't very smart for the things i blog about but maybe i'll take a swing at something new.

right? right?

it wouldn't hurt to experiment.

Thursday, August 20, 2009



Friday, August 14, 2009


(why didn't i notice that i had no number seventeen before?!)


Tuesday, August 4, 2009

i'm not your saviour, save your energy

Originally uploaded by Valeria :)
stop hurting, the tears will eventually dry
maybe next time, it'll be your truth and not lie
so stop crying, there's no room for it at all
should've thought about it before i let you fall
photo copyright to valeria.
poem by yours truly.

Monday, August 3, 2009





Lindsay Lohan Spread on ELLE UK September 09 Issue

(via fashionindie)

first look: vogue australia september 09

featuring Abbey Lee Kershaw and Catherine McNeil
by Greg Kadel
(via fashionindie)


Monday, July 27, 2009

marielle's must-haves

Inspired by a real article. Can't find the link to it, though :/


Every girl has at least more than two bags, and even guys know that they can never get enough. So, what to put in it? I'm personally obsessed with big bags and I love stuffing it with things that I find useful!

Rings — Who knows, maybe I'll need a ring to complete my outfit, you know? Haha.

Dolce & Gabbana Light Blue — I love this perfume!

Compact Powder — To keep my face from looking shiny.

Mascara — Diorshow is awesome.

Vogue Magazine — The perfect magazine for someone interested in fashion.

Necklaces — Same as the rings.

Purell — Gotta have hand sanitizer ready at all times!

Camera — Preferably an SLR, to snap the special moments in life that can't be repeated!

Money — Keep that chedda with you, you know?

Lipgloss — Nars has amazing ones, as well as Faces and Victoria's Secret.

Nylon Magazine — Another perfect magazine! Who knows when you are sitting with nothing to do, right?

Kleenex — Just in case.

Lotion — Always, always, always.

Watch — I don't normally keep this in my bag but rather on my wrist, but you know, I like to be punctual, haha.

Marc Jacobs Daisy — This perfume also smells really, really good!

Vera Wang Rock Princess — So Daisy is for a daytime date, like lunch. Light Blue is for a nice outing with a friend or just a walk in the park. Rock Princess? Nighttime and partying, yup!

iTouch — Always keep your tunes handy!

Eyeliner — Liquid and pencil in one little tube. Keep them near to fix up the make-up.

Cellphone — You need to be reached whenever and wherever!

Well, there's a look inside my bag and the must-haves.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

headbanging and rockin out

another one of my music posts! are you guys into the same tunes? comment with your favourite song of right now!

turn it up / i'm out of control / now listen up / listen up

i've been following you for blocks / and i wish that you would stop / and tell me your name

started / i still remember driving / our lights disturbed the highway

i'm just trying to stay human being / sitting in the sun / eating ice cream

andrew sighs / don't let me die / don't try to fight

eyes lit / on sharp breaths / from darks lips

baby stop and think about it / tell me / where did we go wrong / how did it end like this

hey little one night stand / don't you wanna get / one step closer to me

our love is a weapon / of mass destruction / destruction / cut deep into my skin

see the scraping sky / far beyond the shallows / far beyond the reaches / of the shadows

water was running / children were running / you were running out of time

we can fight our desires / but when we start making fires / we get ever so hot

faster, louder / keep it going all night / i can take it to the limit / move it how i like

you were my first kiss / you were my first miss / what we made was our own

watch my back / so i'll make sure / you're right behind me as before

by or by the way / of an explanation / cast adrift off the shores of shotter's nation

time ain't gonna cure you honey / time don't give a shit

there was a girl who lived in london town / the scenes and sounds / they would only bring her down

love don't give no compensation / love don't pay no bills

after all of this is gone / who would you rather be / the beatles or the rolling stones

if i go anywhere you want me to go / how will i know you'll still follow

ten thousand miles apart / a frozen ocean joins our heart

i be on it / all night / yeah i be in that daze / still tippin'

i can't belong to anybody else right now / though it is not much of an excuse

i hope that someday / i'll see without these frames / and in the daylight

do you remember / when we first met / the way you looked / i can't forget

every question / every answer too / ever constant / ever changing view

stand and deliver / your money or your life / try and use a mirror / no bullet and no knife

summer's in your heart / and i know that you're staying

every night / he comes and goes again / if isn't right / it isn't him

i've had my head among the clouds / well now that i am coming down / won't you be my solid ground

guess i got in trouble too / nothing left for me to do / i guess i forgot to play it cool

PHOENIX - 1901
by now you know it's easy / like we did it all summer long

you won three wishes / want to fly to heavens / want to swim like fishes

one's a company / two's a crowd / and three's a party

you can use anyone / but it won't be long / till somebody finds there's something wrong

welcome back to where we're gonna have you / shellshock / fall back

go hard today / the past is the past you know / don't worry about the past / cause that's yesterday

hey now there now / it's a game to be played

playing their songs / and dancing along / feeling better

comment if you want any download links - i've got em... but i'm not responsible for what you do with them! (this whole RCAA crap.. yeah?)

also make sure to listen to MANNEQUINS (ash stymest's band) @
check out josh beech's new band @
and check out - she's amazing!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

someone else has already said it best

check my livejournal archive for more:

"I never even thought about whether or not they understand what I'm doing . . . the emotional reaction is all that matters as long as there's some feeling of communication, it isn't necessary that it be understood."
- John Coltrane

"Fear, loneliness. They’re the big ones, Rose. Some of the most terrible acts ever committed have been inspired by them. We’re not dealing with something that wants to conquer or destroy. There’s a lot of things you need to get across this universe. Warp drive, wormhole refractors. You know the thing you need most of all? You need a hand to hold."
- The Doctor ; "Doctor Who"

"Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we really need. And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying "hello again" that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life."
- Anonymous

"When I see you, the world. It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you. There’s nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops and it’s a beautiful place and there’s only you. Just you. And my eyes staring at you. When you’re gone, the world starts again and I don’t like it as much. I can live in it, but I don’t like it. I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It’s the best thing I’ve ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you."
- Unknown

"I don’t believe in love, I believe in fucking. It’s honest, it’s efficient. You get in and out with a maximum of pleasure and a minimum of bullshit. Love is something straight people tell themselves they’re in so they can get laid. And then they end up hurting each other because it was all based on lies to begin with."
- Brian Kinney ; Queer As Folk

"I'm not asking you to forgive me. I'll never understand or forgive myself. And if a bullet gets me, so help me, I'll laugh at myself for being an idiot. There's one thing I do know... and that is that I love you, Scarlett. In spite of you and me and the whole silly world going to pieces around us, I love you. Because we're alike. Bad lots, both of us. Selfish and shrewd. But able to look things in the eyes as we call them by their right names."
- Rhett Butler ; Gone With The Wind

"Maybe we don't go to hell for the things we do, maybe we go to hell for the things we don't do."
- Chuck Palahniuk ; Lullaby

"I like too many things and get all confused and hung up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion."
- Jack Kerouac ; On The Road

"Dear Annette, I don't know what I could possibly say that would rectify the harm I've caused you. The truth of the matter is that being with you was the only time I have ever been happy. My whole life has been a joke. I prided myself on taking joy in others' misery. Well, it finally backfired. I succeed in hurting the first person I ever loved. Enclosed is my most prized possession. My journal. For a long time I considered it my trophy. A sordid collection of my conquests. If you really want to know the truth than please read it. No more lies. Please give me another chance. I'm a wreck without you."
- Sebastian ; Cruel Intentions

"I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the-the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is-is-is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't-I can't look into your eyes without feeling that-that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, 'cause I've never felt this way before, and I-I don't care. I like who I am because of it. And if bringing this to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But God, I just, I couldn't allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And, you know, I'll accept that. But I know, I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there's a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. And all I ask, please, is that you just - you just not dismiss that, and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. Alyssa, there isn't another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can't deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of."
- Holden ; Chasing Amy

"When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No... don't blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away. Doesn't sound very exciting, does it? But it is!"
- Iannis ; Captain Corelli's Mandolin

"I saw the future once, I was drunk in a phone booth. My eyes were wet and red but I could not tell what was said and through the screams of the traffic; voices carried saying 'I am sorry.' On a day so grey it's black inside, watching churches on TV. In a coma you don't dream - you just hope that someone sits with you."
- Douglas Coupland ; Girlfriend In A Coma

"So I guess this is where I tell you what I learned - my conclusion, right? Well, my conclusion is: Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it. Derek says it's always good to end a paper with a quote. He says someone else has already said it best. So if you can't top it, steal from them and go out strong. So I picked a guy I thought you'd like. 'We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature.'"
- Danny Vinyard ; American History X

"You listen to me. I've been alive a bit longer than you, and dead a lot longer than that. I've seen things you couldn't imagine, and done things I prefer you didn't. Don't exactly have a reputation for being a thinker. I've only my blood, which doesn't exactly rush in the direction of my brain, so I make a lot of mistakes, a lot of wrong, bloody calls. A hundred plus years, and there's only one thing I've ever been sure of -- you. Hey, look at me. I'm not asking you for anything. When I say I love you, it's not because I want you, or because I can't have you, and it has nothing to do with me. I love what you are. What you do. How you try. I've seen your kindness and your strength. I've seen the best and the worst of you, and I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are. You are a hell of a woman. You're the one, Buffy."
- Spike ; Buffy The Vampire Slayer

"She looked up at him with dead eyes and smiled.
'How did you find me?' he asked.
She was silent, for a while, in the moonlight. Then she said, 'You are the nearest thing I have to life. You are the only thing I have left, the only thing that isn’t bleak and flat and gray. I could be blindfolded and dropped into the deepest ocean and I would know where to find you. I could be buried a hundred miles underground and I would know where you are.'"
- Neil Gaiman ; American Gods

"I can't go with you Tad, because you don't love me, you maybe want to love me. But I think what you love right now is the idea of me. You can't love someone for what they stand for or seem to be. You have to love them for their details, for the little things that are true of them and only them."
- Rosalee ; Win A Date With Tad Hamilton

"When you were little, couldn't have been more than five, you just started asking questions. How come we didn't have a mom. Why did we always have to move around. Where's Dad. I remember I begged you, 'Quit asking, Sammy. You don't want to know.' I just wanted you to be a kid. Just for a little while longer. Always tried to protect you. Keep you safe. Dad didn't even have to tell me. It's just always my responsibility, you know? It's like I had one job. I had one job, and I screwed it up. I blew it, and for that, I'm sorry. I guess that’s what I do. I let down the people I love. Y’know, I let Dad down, and now I guess I’m just supposed to let you down, too. How can I? How am I supposed to live with that? What am I supposed to do? Sammy? What am I supposed to do?"
- Dean Winchester ; Supernatural

"Failure's hard, but success is far more dangerous. If you're successful at the wrong thing, the mix of praise and money and opportunity can lock you in forever."
- Po Bronson, Author of "What Should I Do With My Life"

"Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt."
- Unknown

"Some say love is blind while others say there is love at first sight. For those who say love is blind, I say open your eyes and take in the endless possibilities of beauty and compassion. For those who believe in love at first sight, take time to close your eyes, look into your heart, and find out whose face it is that you see."
- John Shows

"When adults say, 'Teenagers think they are invincible' with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, becuase we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible becuase we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail."
- John Green ; Looking For Alaska

"There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."
- Chuck Klosterman

"I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing."
- Neil Gaiman

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
- Neil Gaiman

"...But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it."
- Anonymous

Life is a disease: sexually transmitted, and invariably fatal.
- Neil Gaiman

"I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk. Thinking about if people were rain. I was drizzle and she was hurricane."

- John Greene (Looking For Alaska)

i was just running through the pages and those stood out.

hey little one night stand

thanks, simplyvera!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

how to pronounce fashion designer names

yeah, i mean, i felt illiterate when i got corrected with a few so here if it helps you. if anything, it'll help you not feel dumb when you do get corrected, har-har.

Hermès = err-mez

Lanvin = lohn-vohn

Balmain = bal-mahn

Balenciaga = bal-en-see-ya-ga

Yves Saint Laurent = eeves-sane-loh-rahnt

Moschino = moe-skee-noh

Proenza Schouler = pro-in-za-skool-er

Marchesa = mar-kay-sa

Bottega Veneta = bo-te-ga-ve-ne-ta (emphasis on the BO and VEN)

Bulgari = bal-gah-ree

Hervé Léger = her-vay lay-jay

Givenchy = je-von-shee

Thierry Mugler = tee-air-ee-moog-lay

Friday, July 3, 2009

summer playlist!

i hope you guys aren't expecting any songs like "Summer Girl" by Stereos or something... cause if you were, you aren't gonna find it here! haha - have fun :)
* alot of these songs are old, but timeless... cause i love old songs when they finally get played out and when you listen to them again, they're just the best :)

young cardinals - alexisonfire
emerald street - alexisonfire
you, me and the bourgeoisie - the submarines
before the worst - the scripts
tape song - the kills
obsessed - mariah carey
still fly freestyle - drake
walking on the moon - kanye west f/ the dream
radio ladio - metronomy
junior year - late nite wars
that girl has love - rooney
champagne supernova - oasis
paris 2004 - peter bjorn & john
dark center of the universe - modest mouse
sway - the perishers
arrows of eros - golden silvers
love kills - little boots
dakota - a rocket to the moon

i'll have a new post later tonight with more songs, but for now, have fun.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Sunday, June 28, 2009

i love leather

get a grip and hold onto your seats. i absolutely love leather and jackets, so leather jackets? makes my life that much more amazing.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

lookbook it

Find me on Lookbook, guys! I'm there @

Rest In Paradise, King of Pop.

Michael Jackson reportedly died at the age of 50 due to cardiac arrest.

The true King of Pop has passed away, and I hope that he rests in peace. I'm in serious need of tlc because MJ has been an inspiration and a true performer from the very start. He'll never be forgotten, regardless of the accusations and the negative media that has been put out over the years. He is a role model to all and he is the TRUE KING OF POP! You'll be missed, MJ!

Thriller night. (Devastating story, and it's devastating that Vince Carter got traded to Orlando Magic. That's just whack...)

Sunday, June 21, 2009



Sunday, June 14, 2009

designer spotlight: alexander wang

Meet Alexander Wang (as if you already didn't know), a Chinese-American designer who is a California native. At only 18 years old, he moved to New York City to attend Parsons Design School and work many intern jobs. He launched his full womens collection in 2007, selling internationally to over 200 boutiques and retail stores. A full accessories collection followed in 2008. Now, Alexander Wang is 25 and resides in New York City's LES, or Lower East Side. He has been recognized world-wide and has received a few, well deserved top honors and awards. He is definitely a L.E.S. Artiste.

Taken from WWD:

“[Fall] was the season where people really recognized us,” says Wang. “We’re under a microscope now. We have to watch our moves and make sure everything we do is right.”

“I’m not taking away from what I’m selling, and confusing the customer. I realized there were no T-shirts that spoke to my aesthetic,” he says. “You have those L.A. brands and then you have the $200, $300 shirts from The Row and Rick Owens.”

“Necklines are stretched and armholes are strategically lowered so that it looks worn in,” he explains. “It’s like sleeping in a T-shirt and then wearing it the next day. It’s not this crisp little T out of the dryer. It’s draped and kind of wilted.”

“Everyone’s been doing an open-toe,” says Wang. “I added the thong to give a fresh perspective and make it more provocative. The thong between your toes, it draws your attention to that area.”

“It’s just an evolution now,” he remarks. “People are either going to love [the changes] or hate [them], but they’ll recognize you for it. You have to show that the brand can evolve and that there’s a future for it.”

He's already helped friend and long time model Erin Wasson set up her own fashion line! She said that he was the one to get her started and now, Erin Wasson for RVCA will be in stores and it's looking fab!

You can see celebrities wearing and sporting Alexander Wang clothing!

This amazing and creative designer isn't going anywhere, at least not yet. He'll hopefully moving onto better things. Look out for him and check out his stuff at retail stores and boutiques around the world. They're fresh and ready-to-wear! Although you see the models sporting them down the runway, they're still wearable on the streets too. Amazing, isn't he? He is.

Don't forget about the face of this wonderful designer, Alexander Wang because he'll be sticking around. Click his name to be redirected to his site!!

By the way, those shorts are God's gift to us, oh my goodness. Thank you Alex.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

tunes i jam to

here's another post and another playlist. for june 10th, at least, haha. i was busy updating my new itouch so i was headbanging to nearly everything and dancing in my chair. haha. enjoy, guys.

body language - jesse mccartney ft. tpain **
parlez-vous francais/konnichiwa, come and move it my way/hey, little chica from guadelupe

heartless (cover) - kris allen ***
in the night, i hear em talk/the coldest story ever told/somewhere far along this road/he lost his soul

landlocked blues - bright eyes ***
but greed is a bottomless pit/and our freedom's a joke/we're just taking a piss

revelry - kings of leon
what a night for a dance/you know i'm a dancing machine/with the fire in my bones

ooh la la (benny benassi remix) - goldfrapp **
dial up my number now/weaving it through the wire/switch me on/turn me up

beat goes on - madonna ft. pharell & kanye west
don't sit there like some silly girl/if you wait too long/it'll be too late

corona and lime - shwayze ft. cisco *
baby will you be my/corona and lime/and i will be your main squeeze

price of company - white tie affair *
see that girl right there/they say she's sexy as hell

day n nite (remix) - kid cudi ft. collie buddz **
i smoke the best weed/i carefully pick out the stems and seeds/the doctor's orders keep my eyes a bleed

therapy - tpain ft. kanye west *
like 1, 2, 3, 4/get the hell up out my door/5, 6, 7, 8/don't need your sex/i'll masturbate

lovers in japan - coldplay ***
lovers, keep on the road your on/runners, until the race is run

unstoppable - kat deluna ft. lil wayne
you can talk all you want/but my skin is really thick/i'm the leader of the crowd/and my game is really slick

the rake's song - the decemberists *
i had entered into a marriage/in the summer of my 21st year/and the bells rang for our wedding/only now do i remember it clear

no you girls - franz ferdinand *
no you girls never know/no, no you girls never know/how you make a boy feel

beautiful - eminem **
what size you wear/i wear tens/let's see if you can fit your feet

* = old
** = recommended
*** = old and recommended

love to get to know you

taken from coco tutu @

67 Questions

1) Are your parents married or divorced?

2) Are you a vegetarian?
heaven knows i've tried and would be one, but no

3) Do you believe in Heaven?

4) Have you ever come close to dying?
multiple times

5) What jewelry do you wear 24/7?

6) Favorite time of day?
morning, early morning as in like 1am, and late night (11pm)

7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?

8) Do you wear makeup?

9) Ever have plastic surgery?
no, thank you

10) Do you color your hair?

11) What do you wear to bed?
loose tee, shorts or sweats depending on season

12) Have you ever done anything illegal?

13) Can you roll your tongue?

14) Do you tweeze your eyebrows?
just to fix 'em up

15) What kind of sneakers?
nike, converse and adidas

16) Do you believe in Abortions?
i believe in pro-choice

17) What is your hair color?
black but in the sunlight, it's brown or has light brown highlights

18) Future child's name?
i want all boys, but i've still to decide on a solid name

19) Do you snore?
not that i know of

20) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?

21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
they're around but i don't hug 'em

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
save some, spend some, donate some

23) Hamburger or hot dog?

24) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
sushi or salad

25) City, beach or country?

26) What was the last thing you touched?

27) Where did you eat last?
the old spaghetti factory

28) When's the last time you cried?
yawning earlier today

29) Do you read blogs?
well, yeah

30) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
i have

31) Ever been involved with the police?

32) What's your favorite shampoo, conditioner and soap?
i don't have favourites

33) Do you talk in your sleep?
not that i know of, or at least not anymore

34) Ocean or pool?
i don't care

35) What's your favorite song at the moment?
body language by jesse mccartney featuring t-pain

36) What's your favorite color(s)?
i like alot and it changes alot

37) Window seat or aisle?
on a plane? window

38) Ever met anyone famous?
sort of

39) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?
i'd like to think that i'm not done living

40) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?

41) Ricki Lake or Oprah?

42)Basketball or Football?

43) How long do your showers last?
usually 15 minutes

44) Automatic or Manual?

45) Cake or ice cream?

46) Are you self-conscious?
yeah, somewhat

47) Have you ever drank so much you threw up?
i know my limit, so no

48) Have you ever given money to a tramp?

49) Have you been in love?
i'd like to say so

50) Where do you wish you were?
in new york for the summer

51) Are you wearing socks?

52) Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?

53) Can you tango?

54) Last gift you received?
itouch with my name engraved

55) Last sport you played?

56) Things you spend a lot of money on?

57) Where do you live?

58) Where were you born?

59) Last wedding attended?
my cousin's, for which i had to read

60) Favorite Drink?
coffee, iced tea, iced coffee, tea, smoothies

61) What'd you do last weekend?
i hung out at home

62) Most hated food(s)?
the list can go on for months

63) What's your least fav chore?
i don't really get assigned chores

64) Can you sing?
i'd like to think so, haha

65) Last person you instant messaged?

66) Last place you went on holiday?

67) Current Crush?
nobody really

Friday, June 5, 2009



Thursday, June 4, 2009





Sunday, May 31, 2009

interview with polyvore's It'sLily,Love♥Adam♥Lambert♥

Meet Lily, also known as It'sLily,Love♥ to all of Polyvore. She's willingly agreed to answer my questions for her, and I'm sure alot of people are dying to find out her inspiring answers. Check out her sets, they are truly stunning! And also, read the whole interview, because she gave me such amazing answers!

View 'i smile, you smile, the end ;' on Polyvore

What made you interested in fashion in the first place?
When I was 8 years old, my mom started working at Bloomingdale's, and sometimes I'd get to go see her. I started to become really fascinated with all the different clothes on the mannequins, the bright colors all over the store, and the way people would mix and match different patterns. Also, my mom is a huge inspiration to me when it comes to everything...she's really the one I should credit for getting me into fashion.

Who is/are your style icon(s)?
My style icons would have to be Rachel Bilson and Lauren Conrad. Rachel, because she has this fun, effortless style, and she's so fearless. I love that about her. The versatility she has in her style is something no one else has. She can be going to the market, and she'll get all dressed up for it. Not many people do that. She makes going out and grabbing the mail a huge occassion. I just think that's so fun. As for Lauren, I've always been such a big fan. I think she's a great style icon because she can take everyday pieces like the little black dress or a pair of skinny jeans and make them so chic. Even if she's wearing a simple black blazer, she'll look stunning because of her fresh, unique approach to dressing.

What inspires you when making your sets on Polyvore?
When I'm making sets on Polyvore, I usually try to find one item that really catches my eye, and then I base my whole set off of that. Usually, it'll be a dress or a top, but sometimes if I see some really nice shoes, I can use them too as my first item. It all depends on what attracts the eye, I think.

Who is/are your favourite designer(s) and why?
My favorite designers are Chanel and 3.1 Phillip Lim. Chanel is just a timeless, elegant brand that will never get old. Every single piece is so different and lovely in its own way. 3.1 Phillip Lim has always been one of my favorites. It's perfect in every single way. You can work any one piece into your every day wardrobe, and I think that that's very important.

If you could attend one show during New York Fashion Week, which show would you attend and why?
I would attend Christian Siriano's show. I loved him on Project Runway, and I love him now. His style is so different, fun, and quirky. I love every one of his creations, and I would kill to wear something that he made.

If you had all the money in the world, what would you spend it on?
I would probably give most of that money away to kids living in third-world countries, especially the little known ones like Bangladesh and such. If I were to have any left, I would buy a beach house in Malibu and invest in a pair of Louboutins.

Do you follow trends? If so, which are your favourites and least favourites?
I suppose I do follow trends, but it depends. I'm not a very practical dresser, and I try to have at least one item that is eye-catching, so one of my favorite trends would have to be colorful flats. I'm a huge fan of peep-toe heels, but I don't own a pair myself. If I could, I would definitely get a pair of Miu Miu peep-toes. Another one of my favorite trends is bows. I like including lots and lots of bows in my sets. My least favorite trends are oxford shoes and fringe-y boots. I've never really liked them. I'm not sure why, I just have never found ways to work them into my daily wardrobe.

Do the sets you create on Polyvore reflect your style in real life? If so, how?
The sets I create on Polyvore definitely reflect on my style in real life, in a big way. I love scarves more than anything, and I love pairing them with sweaters. I'm also having a huge obsession with shorts at the moment. I'm not a huge glove-wearer, but I have two colorful pairs and one lacy pair. All these things can be seen included in my sets.

What are your favourite stores?
My favorite stores are Free People, Forever 21, and Urban Outfitters.

What are some bands/books/songs/people etc. that inspire you?
I listen to All Time Low, Breaking Benjamin, Bullet for My Valentine, and Eyes Set To Kill a lot, as well as other bands when I need inspiration. As for people, Chrisstinaa!, Manda, Laura, watching.clouds, and Lindsey are very inspirational. There's a song called 'Darling' that means everything to me. :]

If you were the fashion police, what would be illegal?
Abercrombie and Hollister would be illegal if I were the fashion police. Those would be the first things I'd think to make illegal.

What is your favourite item that you own?
My favorite item that I own is my black sweater. It has gold buttons and white stripes. It's sort of perfect for any occasion.

Do you have any set making advice for anybody?
Even if everyone else is doing something else, stick with what you're comfortable with. I recently just made a mosaic-y type of set, and it wasn't 'me' at all. I'm all about trying new things and doing something different once in a while, but most of the time, I think it's really important to be doing what you want, not what others are doing.

Do you have an inspiration quote or any advice for anybody on fashion?
Fashion isn't all about what's being worn by celebrities or what designers are making. It's about releasing your inner creativity and making yourself look and feel good. When I think about fashion, I think about having fun and going crazy. I've never had a day when I've 'worried' about finding something to wear for an occasion. It's just so much fun for me. It's not something that should be taken seriously.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

it doesn't take a genius to figure it out

And yes, of course, our favourite girls are best dressed.

interview with polyvore's Coco Tutu ♥

Meet E, also known as Coco Tutu ♥ on Polyvore. She's known for her amazing mosaic sets, usually soft colours or dark, edgy colours. She's willingly answered the questions that I asked her, and her answers are definitely unique! Remember to check out her sets, they are gorgeous!

View 'best stories' on Polyvore

What made you interested in fashion in the first place?
For fashion, I've loved it all my life. Probably what inspired me were mainly two things: My mom and my city. First of all my mom is really a style icon- she has amazing items and truly great sense of style. I've always loved playing with her Birkin bags and walking in her Manolos. She showed me a great side of fashion which inspired me to pursue it. Second is my city. I live in NYC which is filled with fashionable people and I am exposed to tons of fashion so I think that also inspired me.

Who is/are your style icon(s)?
Wow, that's a tough one.
I adore:
Audrey Hepburn in Breakfast at Tiffany's. Wow, all her outfits were amazing and if you find a pair of tortoiseshell glasses like that I will LOVE you forever!
I love Kate Moss's ability to look fabulous in everything and try new things.
I think Mary Kate Olsen has some good inspiration in a boho glam look.
I love Blair Waldrof's preppy chic look
I think that Cory Kennedy pulls of a grunge boho glam high fashion look fabulously

What inspires you when making your sets on Polyvore?
When making sets on Polyvore I normally get inspired by a picture I see or an item I find. Sometimes I find a cute quote or even have a mood I am in. Also, RP characters and their diverse personality and things that happened that day.

Who is/are your favourite designer(s) and why?
I love Hermes for being so timeless and classic, YSL and Chanel for the same, Marc Jacobs is always just fabulous, Phillip Lim 3.1 for having amazing clothing, Acne for their fabulous dresses (as seen on and of course I LOVE Balenciaga.

If you could attend one show during New York Fashion Week, which show would you attend and why?
Gosh just one? Probably Chanel or Balenciaga. Chanel always pulls on a fabulous show and I am just in love with Balenciaga and their edgy fashions.

If you had all the money in the world, what would you spend it on?
-Hermes Birkin
-Chanel 2.55 Bag
-Sass & Bide denim shorts
-Alexander Wang tank top
-Balenciaga big city bag
-Hermes bangles
-Bulgari bracelets, necklaces, everything
-Cartier earrings
-Boyfriend jeans, Current & Elliot
-Chanel flats
-Jimmy Choos
-BAGS, SHOES and more! I would go crazy :).

Do you follow trends? If so, which are your favourites and least favourites?
I do follow trends in the fact I like to know what is "in" and "out" but i can't say I follow them. I just wear whatever I like :).
I think that one shoulder dresses are fabulous for spring and love distressed denim shorts. I don't love harem pants, and this isn't really a trend but I like Hunter boots but the fact now everyone in my school are wearing them is getting my annoyed.

Your mosaics are stunning. How long does it take you to create one and where do you find all the items?
Wow, thanks! Well, it depends. A set like that has taken me 2 minutes or 2 weeks. It depends on how much inspiration I have and how quickly and how good items I already have to compliment the set. Sometimes I don't have a story so a finished draft also sits in my sets for weeks.

Do the sets you create on Polyvore reflect your style in real life? If so, how?
Somewhat the styles do. I would wear everything that I make. I genuinely like all the outfits. However some are a bit more edgy or bright or showy than what I would wear, but I would love wearing them. I just wish I had all the items!

What are your favourite stores?
I love Olive & Bettes a boutique in NYC, the stores of my favorite designers and Bergdorf's, Barney's, Bloomingdale's and Sak's.

If you were the fashion police, what would be illegal?
Tube Tops, Uggs with Sweatpants, too much Abercrombie / Hollister with the logo Coach bag and Juicy Couture gold charm bracelet.

Do you have any set making advice for anybody?
For Polyvore making advice mine would be:
-don't copy
-be yourself
-try to find inspiration
-just go with it! see what comes out no matter how ridiculous it may seem! experiment with things you may not wear in real life!

Do you have any fashion advice for anybody?
For fashion advice, mine would be:
-wear what you want not what others wear
-be yourself and don't be afraid to take risks
-invest in classics and quality pieces which will last a lifetime

Friday, May 29, 2009

interview with polyvores your lullaby ;

Meet Mechele, also known as your lullaby ; on Polyvore. She, fortunately, agreed to let me ask her a bunch of questions and her answers are truly inspiring! Look out for her on Polyvore - her sets are astonishing and brilliant!

View 'Les Filles Riches Crasseuses' on Polyvore

What made you interested in fashion in the first place?
Probably the fact that its one of the most obvious ways of expressing yourself. Its the first thing people see when you first meet them, so in my opinion its something very important and expressive, that everyone should try to customize to their own personalities.

Who is/are your style icon(s)?
I have a lot of icons, but the most important ones to me are Daisy Lowe, Mary-Kate and Ashley, and Becky Lou Filip.

What inspires you when making your sets on Polyvore?
Lots of things, mostly music though. The look and feel of my sets really depend of what type of music I was listening to while I was making them.

Who is/are your favourite designer(s) and why?
Coco Chanel and Marc Jacobs are my absolute favourites. I love Chanel because every piece is very classic, and I love Marc Jacobs because his pieces are fun to play around with, especially in sets.

If you could attend one show during New York Fashion Week, which show would you attend and why?
Probably Jill Stuart's, she's just amazing.

If you had all the money in the world, what would you spend it on?
Clothes, lots of clothes. And in two years when I turn 16 I would probably buy a fancy car of some sort.

Your roleplay sets have amazing stories. Where do you get your muse from?
I try and figure out what I want the mood for the story to be, not necessarily what will happen, but just the feel of it so I can pick out what type of music to listen to while I'm writing it. Then while I'm listening to songs that fit the story's mood, the story itself usually just comes together without that much planning of the actual details. So my muses for the stories are almost always singers or bands.

Do you follow trends? If so, which are your favourites and least favourites?
I'm sure if you really looked at me or my sets you would find trends that I've followed, but I never think to myself 'I have to wear this just because everyone else is.' I try and just wear and make sets with the things I genuinely like, not things I've made myself think I like or should like.

Do you think you are a fashionable person for your age?
In my opinion, yes, but everyone has a different idea of what they think is 'fashionable.' To some people I probably am, but I'm sure some other people think differently.

Do the sets you create on Polyvore reflect your style in real life? If so, how?
They do now, but they haven't always. I went through a few month period where basically the only sets I made were for other people, but now they definitely reflect my style in real life. If you knew me personally and looked at any of my sets that I've made within the last month or so, you would definitely see that they're reflective of my real life style.

What are your favourite stores?
It really depends on what I'm looking for, but my absolute favourites are Urban Outfitters and Top Shop.

If you were the fashion police, what would be illegal?
Probably clothes that don't fit properly and things that aren't very original or have been done too much.

Do you have any set making advice for anybody?
Not really, I don't want to say to people how I think they should make sets. The only thing I can say is that you should make them way you feel the most comfortable making them and the way you think they turn out the best for you. Everyone should make the types of sets that work for them and make them the way they like to.

Do you have any fashion advice for anybody?
I think the only fashion advice I would give would be 'Dress for yourself and always wear the things you like. Never try to please other people by changing your style, it won't do anyone any good.'



mixed lyrics part 2

Featuring songs from my Blogspot playlist.

You're the best I ever had
Let me hold you for the last time
This can be the future
I'll be your sunshine, you can be mine

Love you girl, do you feel the same?
I wake up every morning with tears in my eyes
Through the storms and the light
Into the pale moonlight

I used to hate you, but now I love you
There are bones to bury and bones to find
The talking leads to touching
You keep on crying, baby, I'll bleed you dry

I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind
If you've got problems, why don't you go solve them?
I can see you, see you there, hanging weightless in the air
Haligh, haligh, an awful lie

Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding
Just because I'm losing, doesn't mean I'm lost
Only for a moment's sake, you called it and it came
I need some fine wine, and you, you need to be nicer

Last one was so much better and kind of made more sense. Go browse for it dans l'histoire!